I have to admit
that my mornings~
that I used to look forward to
to just sit and be still
with God
to experience
what He had for me~
have become
a dreaded have to.
Is it because I have been depending on
myself to write something?
Have I lost my focus to why I write?
Oh how I miss the days when
my heart and fingers would just connect
and I would be blown away by
what would flow through them.
But
right now I am in
a desert time~
a dry time.
I believe God is here
I believe Jesus is my Savior
I know I have the Holy Spirit in me
Yet I feel nothing.
But feeling is not believing
& the feelings can overtake me
& I can believe in them,
and then what?
Does that mean that there is no God, Jesus or Holy Spirit? Sounds crazy,
but that is what it feels like.
Where are you God?
Where are you Jesus?
Where are you Holy Spirit?
I want more of you.
I want to feel you.
If I recognize You are there, does that mean that You are?
Have you ever felt like this~
Discouraged
Lost
Confused~
even though you know
The Truth that has set you free?
David, the great Psalmist, felt this
as he cried out the words
in his down state~
"Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? "
But then
He immediately solves his own problem
as He
Looks Up~
"I will put my hope in God! I will praise Hm again--my Savior and my God!" Psalm 42
In the wait.
And again He cries
From Down~
"How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart?"
To Up~
"But I trust in Your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in Your salvation. I will sing the Lord’s praise, for He has been good to me." Psalm 13
As He waits.
As I wait
As you wait
Because
God hasn't gone anywhere.
The tomb still remains empty.
The Spirit's fire hasn't gone out.
Will you join me today
and
Fast
from those
Down moments
by
Looking Up
whether you feel it or not,
just because
He hasn't stopped
looking at You & ~
"I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth." Psalm 12:1-2
Weightless Log
1st Pound: Self
2nd Pound: Complaining and Blame
3rd Pound: Chaos
4th Pound: _____________
5th Pound : Judgement
6th Pound: Distractions
7th Pound: Jealousy
8th Pound: DIS
9th Pound: Procrastination
10th Pound: Fear
11th Pound: Temporary
12th Pound: Frustration
13th Pound: Anxiety
14th Pound: I Don't Wanna
15th Pound: Forsaken
16th Pound: Control
17th Pound: Meaningless
18th Pound: Unimaginable
19th Pound: Despair
20th Pound: Knowing
21st Pound: Trees
22nd Pound: Thinking Less of Self
23rd Pound: Our Clothes
24th Pound: What Was
25th Pound: _______________
26th Pound: Unwholesome Talk
27th Pound: Uncomplicated
28th Pound: Shame
29th Pound: Worry
30th Pound: The Past
31st Pound: Un-Mattered
32nd Pound: _____________
33rd Pound: Down