How do you say THANK YOU
when you don't feel like saying THANK YOU?
You know what I am talking about.
I feel like I am being tested and I am failing the test,
because I don't want to say THANK YOU to GOD.
Oh I bet that got your attention.
As things are not going the way that I planned them to be.
I am tired.
I am tired of picking myself up
and going to GOD.
Yup. Me. Who just stood before women
pouring out my heart about my GOD
who I am nothing WITHOUT,
and right now I feel empty.
I feel WITHOUT.
Where is my JOY?
Where is my HOPE?
I am flatline.
Is this the doings of the thief who has come to steal the abundant life that is mine
IN CHRIST?
Is he so crafty that he does whatever he can to bring
GOD'S CHILDREN
deep into discouragement.
But now I hear the soft whisper of
GOD
who never lets me go
who is always pursuing me,
but will I allow HIS voice to be louder than the thief?
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your GOD will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9)
And there are those words
"HAVE I NOT COMMANDED YOU"
that just pierced my soul.
GOD got me back.
It is a COMMAND to be strong and courageous when you are feeling weak and discouraged.
It is a COMMAND to not be afraid when you are ladened with fear.
Why is GOD so DEMANDING to COMMAND?
Because all HE wants is for me & you to know that
HE IS WITH US WHEREVER WE GO.
If GOD is with us
when weakness
when discouragement
when fear
strikes us from all angles,
then HIS COMMAND is more like a soft gentle purr of a little kitten
luring us back
as HE is just GRACEFULLY asking~
Will you just BELIEVE that
MY PRESENCE is your strength when you are weak.
MY PRESENCE is your courage when you are discouraged.
MY PRESENCE wipes away ever fear that stares you in the face.
So while I am in the midst of my sissy fit
GOD meets me right where I am
with a COMMAND
that is like a gentle tap on my shoulder,
HIS way for me to look at HIM
once again
to remember that
HE IS always PURSUING you and I
fighting for our full attention
when the world is fighting for our full attention.
HE is my TRUST.
HE is my STRENGTH.
HE is my COURAGE.
I am nothing without HIM
so why did I even try to not say
THANK YOU GOD
because I wasn't feeling very THANKFUL.
BUT GOD didn't let me run too far away from HIS GRACE,
that sweet spot that has called me back to be with HIM,
the ONE who I am nothing WITHOUT.
THANK YOU GOD
"In the middle of the night
I look up to the sky
I can hear YOU
Singing over me
Through the fire and the flood
I know that I am loved
I can hear YOU
Singing over me"
(from "SONG OF MY FATHER", listen below)
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